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it's times like these that brings me to realize that
God has my back..
pressing on towards the goal. not looking back.
just two more weeks.
then a new chapter begins.


i wish he could not go and stay here. but i know it'll be selfish.

Success!????

 whoa..

i spent the whole day like studying.
Thanks to my study buddies,wei hsiang and vikram
i have reached kiasu mode..hahahah

reality: time is short. not sufficient. syllabus is large and heavy.

Hope: God. The super one who created me, who holds the earth in the palm of his hands, he's the ultimate Physicist, Chemist, Math Whiz,and all knowing god who has all general knowledge and so much more at the tip of his fingers. yup. he's with me 24/7.

so do i have to worry. i guess not.he works everything out for the good of those who love and trust him.

thank you Lord, for the rainbow. your promises are true and you are faithful. your grace is enough for me Lord. when i am weak,  I am strong. for you work best in my weaknesses.

6 days to go...

loves. phie

>>so little time, so much to do. i 'd rather spend more time with you - walking is never the same with anyone else.-

GAH!!

if you havent spoken to me in a long time...

i like the word gah.. it expresses frustration, relieves stress..speaks my mind when i'm tired and filled with clutter.

                      GAH!!!!!!

much better..

11 days and counting...oh no!!

an apple for her!!

you know how in old movies..those kids would always be walking to school with a few books bounded together with the string thingamajiggy..in one hand and an apple in the other...
 
           if i was that kid..i'll give my apple to this one teacher...pn Chuah.

why?? Cause she's like the best teacher ever!!!!!!
>>she's like always there...sent from above.
>>see i hate asking ppl for help. i guess maybe i see it as myself admitting my weakness. anywho..i was struggling bad with my math. So finally i decided that i was going to ask someone to help me. who better than my trusted math teacher. thing was i had to much pride(i think that's the right word to use)in me..and couldn't utter those words..played it out repeatedly in my head..i even practiced...."teacher,i'm struggling..nono..teacher are you free..no.erm...i cant understand this lah. OH FORGET IT LAH...i dont need help."

well, in the end those word dissolved from vocab..i wanted help. and i knew she was the only one fit for the Job. so i finally asked her. mana tau..she was leaving for camp on Thursday..and will only be available on monday and tuesday night. she didnt mind me coming over and helping me out..

so i just came back from her place. and you know what she offered to help next week too. so it wasnt just a one time pity thing. it was an .. ok i'll do what i can to help you...

two days ago i was defeated, for i thought help would not come. there was no motivation. but now knowing that one person would go all the way for me even when she doesnt have too makes me want to give all that i got into this..

God..thank you so much for this. i needed it so badly. thank you for lifting me up this time. love you Lord. bless pn chuah too Lord cause she's been an awesome teacher.

phie

Run baby run!

THe oddest thing happened today...my friend ran away from home. cute thing was my friend only ran for a few hours but brought enough stuff to last at least two days.haha. my fault my friend failed but oh well. 

i guess sometimes we all want to just want to leave and runaway from it all. whatever it may be fights, exams, stpm(haiyo!) but how many of us actually do it.......well, although i dont encourage anyone else to run away when things happen i must say that it took guts and strong will power to run like my friend.

but in the end when you think about it, running never does anyone any good. unless you're in a race or somesort. hmmm. reminds me of the story of Jonah. he didnt want to get in too deep with things. he wanted the more convenient path of life..unfortunately by running things got worst for him. 

When it comes to issues,i guess good ol' confrontation and god given patience is the way  to go. 

Lesson learnt today:  Life's tough. Even when we don't like whats happening right in front of us, we shouldnt run. we're made to face things head on..check out the armour of god, realise that there's nothing protecting our backs. When we're just confused, we can just stand there, but never run!

thank you God for today, man! that word from ps phillips hit me right at home. God i want to worship you for all you are. teach me to be selfless in worship. sorry for making it about me so often.when it's bout you. teach me Lord everyday, 

i'm pondering bout this now:  is our worship to God reflecting heavenly worship? are the songs we're singing in line with the word of god or just a bunch of nice sentences which triggers our emotions...?

loves.