Courage

'We do not get unlimited chances to have the things we want. nothing is worse than missing an opportunity that could have changed your life.'
- GA -

 

 

 

Thank You God! Thanks Sha. Thanks Dae.

WHat would i do without you guys! ( not that you others dont matter ok. its with regards to this post .. cheers)

London

Got to thank God for all that he has blessed me with.

1) The night before my flight, i found out that i had no accommodation available for my friend and i when we arrive at heathrow airport.( i reached london on 25th but could only get into my college on 29) We called up so many different ppl for accommodationbs but there was none. so we said to ourselves we'll just see how when we get there..come to worst...stay in a b and b..
so we prepared for the worst.. and my friend finally gave up calling..told god it was in his hands...and the next moment somebody calls offering a place where we could stay for as long as we like.

2) Our flight tickets got upgraded to business class for the first half of the transit flight..it was amazing ..we felt so spoilt and definitely blessed by god. the legs space. the food. the service...wow.

3)A stranger over the shop counter gave me a sim card for free cause he had an extra.  mine wouldnt work when i tried to reload it.so he just gave a sim card to me..

4) My roommate is awesome..somebody i could get along with..i feel that what i'm going through here especially with the ppl i meet are the answers of all your prayers for i did meet good friends...that i could not only have fun and go crazy with but i could be real with them and talk about the lectures. talk about life with. they are great.. most of the ppl here are from england so it great that they actually take an effort to make me feel as home as possible..

5) i caught a flew in my first week. but they took good care of me..kept me warm..and entertained. hahah..it wasnt that bad lah..

so yeah.. god is good.. and yeah. i've learnt that god does favour and bless those who seek him regardless of the opinions of others..with all their heart..

loves.
sophie

Avril.

This is so weird.

I'm finally looking forward to Avril L's concert.

My cousin Sarah Foo is like her ultimate fan. She totally loves Avril,her music and her style
( i like her style cause she's authentic but that doesnt mean i go ga-ga ).

I guess we all go through that phase of loving something so much that we choose to include/involve them in our whole lives.
 We stop our days and give our time to be apart of whatever we're crazee bout.
Sarah has even talked about wanting Avril as a middle name. I'm not sure whether or not she'll change her mind about that though...eeks
I actually searched out the meaning of this name. what i found out. it's french just like mine. It means April. hmmm..

But back to the point. I'm surprised at how i'm starting to get excited about it eventhough most of the ppl around me are laughing at the fact that i'm going. Maybe it's cause i realised that I would rockin' out with little Sarah and that to me is something priceless..I think she's so cool for going all out about Avril not caring bout what others say and all.

Aunthenticity
Since I brought up the word. I think there is always something to learn from the people around you. Even Avril. I mean i dont know much about her but just by what i see on the surface.

 I'm reminded of how in life we got to be authentic. Real and sincere to the people around us and also ourselves. Authentic in our faith and not leeching of a friend's or family member's faith.

Lord, i meant what i said. I dont want to make this a habit. So help me break it. Thanks for loving me the same all the time.
Love you.

Avril here I come!! ""Let me hear you say hey hey hey!""

The Desert Song

I am going to start seeking God in my everyday decisions once again.

I refuse to live based on practicality.

I want a life of faith even if it leads me to radical obedience,radical sacrifice, or radical vision. 

With this choice i know i might not please everyone. i may even end up alone but i know i wont be lonely. For god is always with me.

So this is me Lord, i rededicate my life. every part of me. my thought, my actions, my speech, my time, my everything. Take me and use. Guide me and lead me. Fill me once again with your spirit. Let me overflow with your word and passion that i may bless others and lead more to you. Father, i love you.

Hillsong - Desert Song

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

And I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be emptied again
The seed I’ve received I will sow

All of my life, In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Sleep Deprived #2

Sleep is precious. Rest brings alertness, takes away emoe-ness, and helps us be better unsnappy friends. I found somethings else worth giving it up for.  Conversations. especially with ppl who know that God is in love with them.


She's one of my favourites.
My Friend..
Gender : Female
Origin : Hebrew
Meaning : Gift from God, Who resembles God, Close to God.

“why don’t you blog about all your stories, people would be so encouraged”

well then, this story is for you .

Dearest You,

Dae asked me one of those days, probably realising that i mention your name quite a bit..." Since when were you close to her? Hmmm...yah, you definitely somebody older to talk to. Everyone needs somebody older."  she probably doesn't remember this but i do...most vividly.

Why?

Cause for the longest time i talked to God bout not having someone older to talk to. Someone with a different yet similar perspective. Someone who loved God so much that her very speech would be flooded on how good He was without forgetting to be relevant.somebody who would scold me if i'd ever screw up instead of just judging me. there was no one..

HAHA....TIBA-TIBA. MY ITUNES IS PLAYING MICHELLE.....crazeee!

You have earned a place in my friend bubble. cause you're all that and more. .you're the person i look up to. My inspiration. for the longest time i didnt let go off certain things cause i guess i was afraid of letting of go of a person i looked up, i could easily do it now cause i realised that my friends..you especially, had taken over that place in my life. i didnt need that person to feel like taken care of.  ( wah...if  you still dont know who i'm talking bout then you are so blur ok...but knowing you you should know lah right) 

 
In Proverbs 27:17 ,
  Iron sharpens iron, so a man sharpens the face of his friend..

That's you. you make me sharp..i hope i do the same for you.

Love you. Psycho-friend!

Phie


father, now what? why can't they see?

AmAzEd

I'm AMAZED.
Lord,what  you've done for us doesn't make sense.
HOW YOU LOVE YOUR CREATION? how you love me.....
i'm amazed .
by your Grace.
i can keep breathing because of you.
I can keep going because your grace carries me through life.
I'm amazed.
For my closest friends Lord,
they all just said they want to make you famous
with their lives.
I'm amazed.
I saw my friends sing at the top of their lungs. they cried.

i'm amazed.
For you've shown me a generation who would take their place and step up for you.

I'm amazed.

thank you Lord, for letting me see. i needed to see that other ppl can be changed by one moment.
I believe you now.

Father i pray for all of us who went for passion and caught something.
Lord lead us to live by faith with and for you. Don't allow us to forget what we felt,heard and saw.

I love You.

Sleep Deprived #1

Everyday our bodies are naturally inclined to long for rest in the midst of our oh so busy schedules.
We attempt to do so much in the little time that we have.
We make decisions about what matters most.
Inevitably,we end up in moments where we have to decide on what is worth more than our rest...that in which would  give us more drive and energy in return rather than just the rejuvenation of our physical bodies.

I was and still am sleep deprived.

Listen:

A couple of weeks back i decided to start watching the best tv series on earth. Yes. GREYS ANATOMY SEASON 4. There were 17 episodes all together. My days were filled with all sorts of activities. therefore the only time i had to indulge in what gave me so much joy...hehe...was in the wee hours of the night. SO I STARTED....watching episode after episode..even though i had only planned on max. 2 episodes at a time. i watched about 5 to 6 episodes at a time.

When i reached the 4th ep in a row, it hit me.

GA, wasn't just entertaining. i felt i could i relate to it. Feel what the characters were feeling. Understand why they said certain things. and most definitely also learn a thing or two from Meredith's logic of the episode. It was a lot to take in. every episode affected me.  the emotions that run through my veins bothered me for they were fluctuating up and down. It was too much thought to process..but I wanted more.

i realised what it meant to be hungry. To want to know, to see, to understand it all even though you might not reach your target. I knew then what i was to "chase" something...making time for it when there's not much time to begin with.

So i spoke to God about it, telling him that i wanted to be hungry like this for His word. Cause there is so much LIFE in it.  I dont want to have the excuse of it being too much too comprehend and therefore i stop. No!  i want to read His word and then have to force myself to sleep. instead of the everyday norm which is falling asleep in my attempt of reading with
enthusiasm.

why? Cause i want to know my God that I call my Lord. Know his his Voice.. most of all. i want The Word of God to take it's place in my heart that whatever he says may take place in mine. CAUSE once you get the LIFE that Jesus Has brought in the world which was dead..how can you run from it.

God answered my prayer. He helped get closer to Him.you're so selfless lord.

As i spread my Love for GA which still burns bright :-).... i'm going to tell YOU bout how fantastic the word of God is if we would only seek to understand it.

So if you haven't been reading or maybe have lost your excitement bout this Word. I DARE YOU! Hunger on but don't complain that you have gastric. Go eat.

Get sleep deprived!

Tadika

 I've stopped teaching in kindy for a while now.

I miss my student's stories :

1) Cat's dying
2) Ultraman saving the day
3) Being angry at daddy for not buying ultraman
4) Piano Class
5) Swimming at the hotel
6) Liking mee hoon
7) Mama/Ibu this and that

I've never posted up pictures of them cute things...so here. be jealous!












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Cheers!

My Birthday

had a blast. having a blast. is there going to be more.....hmmm..
Lord, can things get any better?

loving friends and family. that's the greatest gift of all..relationships.

Death

4.44p.m.

Death. To my will.
Death. To my right.
Death. To my way.

Death.

Galations 2.20

Mister God

God is King. LoRD. Majestic. Big. Great. Powerful. This is who he is.

If I didn’t get it wrong. We were told to know him.

I watched ever after yesterday. Every time Danielle referred to prince Henry as your highness he stressed that he was just another man born into privilege.

So, does then mean that when we don’t know god intimately, it's only right that we treat God that way.. But the moment we know him and have a relationship with Him…we are able to interact with him casually and at the same time still acknowledge who he is.

Sometimes Lord I struggle with this. I see some speaking to you with so much respect. That when I hear the way I interact with you I feel as if I'm in the wrong. It's as though I have downsized you in a sense. But deep down you have always been my closest friend. One I can confide in, reason with, listen to, learn from… I guess God I have fallen into the whole Peter situation.

Joh 21:19 He spoke this signifying by what death he should glorify God. And when He had spoken this, He said to him, Follow Me.

Joh 21:20 Then Peter, turning around, saw the disciple whom Jesus loved following (the one who also leaned on His breast at supper, and said, Lord, who is he who betrays You?)

Joh 21:21 Seeing him, Peter said to Jesus, Lord, and what of this one?

Joh 21:22 Jesus said to him, If I desire that he remain until I come, what is that to you? You follow Me.

What is that to me?

I have been looking everywhere. Except for my own path, my own relationship with you. I was not focused. Now I know one thing. What others go thru is their lot. What is that to me. Lord, I treasure this close relationship with you and I pray that no one would take it away or alter it. God, fill me with certainty in this way that we are related to each other. Reveal To me Lord, more of how you are in everything, How all things points to you. Teach me your word. Let it be new AND FRESH. God I don’t want to be stuck in a place where everything is compartmentalized . But Lord, teach me and connect all that I know that I may see how everything connects to you and leads to you.

I don’t want to look at the problems anymore. Open my eyes to possibilities. from Oppositions. to see opportunities.

Is this healthy?

I've begun on a peculiar journey of consuming a significant amount of pills daily.

1) Malaria Prophylaxis
( going to cambodia for a mission trip..therefore precaution against such a deadly virus is necessary)
2) Ginseng capsules
3) Vitamin C
4) Clarinase ( flu-iie)

Yes. Four pills are considered many in my dictionary.

Is this really healthy? call me conventional but i still believe in taking all the nutrients i need the natural way.....

Oh well.. .

sleep early  + drink water + eat pills + exercise + house chores = happy mother?

Thanks Lizzie.

 Carrie Underwood - So Small

What you got if you aint got love?
The kind that you just wanna give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out
And just be left alone
Don't run out on your faith

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searching for forever,
Is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters, after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small

It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big, at the time
It's like a river that's so wide
It swallows you whole
While you're sittin round thinking about what you can't change
And worryin' about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count, cause you can't get it back

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh it sure makes everything else
Seem so small

 Vexation has led me to Wonder...



relationship.
stalking.
infatuation.
masterpiece.

Coming Soon.....
 

but Dust.

I wanted and needed to be scolded, but my Father responded in Love.

As a father shows compassion to his children,
    so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear him.
For He knows our frame;
    he remembers that we are dust.

- Psalm 103:13-14 -


  "That is why the kingdom of heaven may be compared to a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. When he had begun to settle the accounts, a person who owed him 10,000 talents was brought to him. Because he couldn't pay, his master ordered him, his wife, his children, and all that he had to be sold so that payment could be made. Then the servant fell down and bowed low before him, saying, 'Be patient with me, and I will repay you everything!' The master of that servant had compassion and released him, canceling his debt. "But when that servant went away, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred denarii. He grabbed him, seized him by the throat, and said, 'Pay what you owe!' Then his fellow servant fell down and began begging him, 'Be patient with me and I will repay you!'  But he refused and went and had him thrown into prison until he could repay the debt.
 "When his fellow servants saw what had happened, they were very disturbed and went and reported to their master all that had occurred. Then his master sent for him and said to him,
    'You evil servant! I canceled that entire debt for you because you begged me. Shouldn't you have had mercy on your fellow servant, just as I had mercy on you?' In anger his master handed him over to the torturers until he could repay the entire debt."

Discrepancies!

The inconsistencies of life kicks in.
The picture of the bed of roses is flooded with weeds, thorns, and pest. 
Why? Is it necessary?
to the untrained eye,It seems like an absurd situation that's inconvenient and unnecessary . believe me my eyes are trained.
But as i clear the weeds, trim the thorns and spray pesticide will my roses be damaged if i'm not cautious.

As we go through the struggles of life that's so inevitable there seems to be so much room for us to mess up what is to come next.
Our reactions shape our tomorrow.
Father, help me for i'm but dust. help me to understand and accept how others are human as you accept my humanity unconditionally.

In the end,with all these weeds etc..the rose grows stronger. It is able to withstand more. It becomes more beautiful and amazing for it has overcomed.

Once a scout, always a scout.

 i was sitting down thinking bout how scouting connects to god...
cause all that we do should have a god purpose or else its kinda pointless.
 so i sat that i thought with god...it was tough loh..
 i was a bit worried at first also cause i couldnt connect the two.
 but now...i think i got it.
 
lately it's been like... " got to be more skilled..get the badges...discipline...respect ceremonies.."
 
i've forgotten the basic which got me stuck to scouts....
 our honor says.... faithful to God and country...help others every moment...live according to my scout laws..
 it's a about being salt and light of the world.
scouting is a training ground...it helps us and equip us to be relevant and useful to be like flvor to the world/people around us...
 its not about self achievement or experience..and just fun...it's about equipping yourself with knowledge that can bless others.
that's scouting...

# knowledge: The act or state of knowing; clear perception of fact, truth, or duty. the familiarity which is gained by actual experience; practical skill

so being a scoutmaster....it's about passing what i know about blessing others to my scouts
 it's not about pushing ppl to get badges...its about pushing ppl to becoming more whole as a person by attaining certain skill..
and lastly it's grounds to bring ppl to back to god.to make known his story and love.
 
have i been scouting with this mind set?...it's been a while since i did.

i'm going to start again...

to all scouts who loves Jesus: you with me?

empties!

there are loads of songs out there. but not many are worth listening to in the end. maybe a good melody for the right situation. but thats all.

i call those empties. ( well maybe they mean stuff but if i dont get it..then in sophie's life its an empty)

i have fallen for the lyrics in this. fu-ah.

it's intense.

MELEE LYRICS

"Built To Last"

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where we are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.

yeah....something built to last. i want that.

epiphany

  one who expects to receive will always be disappointed.

incomplete rambles

A plan was made in the mind of my God, the creator of the universe. Before the world existed my story was formed in the fragments of his mind. I've concluded after a conversation with Shaun that my life if it were a form of media, would a be a ' series' . Yes. Like Harry Potter, Grey's Anatomy, Friends ( personally I think its more to this one)

Each season or book has it's central theme.


#1 The Birth and early childhood
- For starters, I ended up being a lefthander. I hear only 1/10 are. Anyways, this is not written statement of how special a person I am. This is just to show the detailed thoughts of God for my very existence.( I'm aware of the fact that he puts the same amount of thought into your life as well) I was a slow walker. A grumpy kid that never smiled when asked to. I loved vegetables from day one and was even called peculiar, well a bit, by my own mother. I hung on to people whom I was familiar with. I needed that sense of security. Going to mommy when I couldn’t sleep. Crying and saying I was hungry just for the sake of company whenever I felt alone.

#2 The Discovery of Identity
- One day as I sat in the front seat of my mother's car, I realized what identity was all about. I may not have known what the word was but I knew the idea. I liked it. My mother said, "You are different. not like your sister. You don't let me choose any of your clothes." .. That day I absorbed more than that. it went into my system. It was true I didn’t allow anyone to influence my taste. For starters in my clothes. I may not have looked the best at all times. But I held on to my own 'look'. I learnt from young to go against the currents. Rebel to the norm. yes a bit naughty. :)
- This was also the season where I learned truths about service. "we don’t do things cause we have to, we do it with the intention of learning. We do it well from attempt 1 and get better at it. Work is play, work is addictive if it's like that. it's education. I realized I had the ability to accomplish things with my hands. ( not till recently I realized that with god by my side, in accordance to his will, I already have what I needed, my hands and heart to accomplish his purposes set for me)
- When I was asked what I wanted to become, I said with confidence after pondering for a brief moment. TAXI DRIVER. I was seated on the shoe rack outside my house.
Yes, now when I look back I know why I said. I'll bring it up later on when necessary.

I told Shaun

just wanted to apologize first.for not telling you..but I guess its ok cause you're not the keeper..(guess god prechooses ppl you can talk to bout certain things).. anyways, CF rally was awesome. besides that, you know what else is awesome? this 28 day fast and pray thingy that our (seafield) cf is going through. we're all seeing god answer our prayers and bringing breakthrough in so many areas of our lives.
well as for me, i've been praying for direction again. biase la cause senior year already and everybody just cant stop asking the ever famous question..."so..after form 6 where you going?" which i so dread.  i mean the last time i asked god this he totally set me up on the road to form 6...i was certain that at that point that  was where god wanted me to head to.almost got scholarship some more. i caught such a passion for teaching and yeah ..realised that i could do/wanted to do nothing else. but at the back of my mind...even from the start god reminded me that i have to leave room for change. cause that whole part was more of a "the journey matters more than the destination " phase.
so yeah i prayed and god spoke.didnt want to listen..prayed some more..he spoke again, sure or not..then rally came..and he spoke so clearly that i cant deny it no more.
shaun, i know full well now that i'm called to full time ministry.( like nothing else..this is it.. Now my general calling is kinda to just do well in this stpm..then after that..adventure.(specific calling).hehe
so....now that i know..i'm just doing my thing..continuing to try and study for my stpm, just serving like i always do..loving god and getting to know him more each day..struggling at times.relying on his grace...BUT THING IS ITS scary!! and i dont know what to do.its just all question marks.?????? everywhere. well, the usual thing that i expect to hear from anybody would be to trust in god ya di da.and that's what i'm doing..really! :)..but i think it's good thing to also seek godly counsel...so that's why I mailled the person I did.(I copied the mail..takkan I so freee to write)
ok i dont know what else to say... so thanks for reading anyways.

What tomorrow brings

words fly by like air in the spaces around us. every turn and corner an uttered emotion. these few remained in my head....
Tomorrow  special   LOVE  ARGHH!!(first time my mom and i screamed to gether in horror...no significance to all the other words..it's the odd one out if it were a puzzle..)   You're soo not trying!

Valentines  Overrated  ..i know(my student. when i asked him whether or not he knew what tomorrow was) 


it's true, when you think about it, that valentines day gives people the excuse of being mediocre in their spread of love/display of affection towards their loved ones in their everyday life. People in general forget that valentines just like christmas acts as a reminder of love... for we do need to be reminded of it at least once a year for we live such busy lives.

My two cents: Valentines reminds us to love and the fact that we are loved.

i guess even though this year is going to be totally different from what it has been, i have already been blessed by the encouragement given to me in conjunction with V' day..

so...who cares iF some might think it's corny to believe in v"day..i love it.

i read this and my day was made...for my cry of being significant was answered..
thank you sara.

"ponder and reflect for yourselves, the philosophy that is inevitable, incomprehensible, unconquerable, and the ultimate mystery of time: that silly thing called love with quotes! :) and just to make it interesting, i will leave names at the back of the quotes... :) it means they remind me of you. :)" sara lau

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity. [Henry Van Dyke] (isn't this a beautiful quote?) Sophie. Garrett. :)

I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love.
[Mother Teresa] Sophie :)

Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier. [Mother Teresa] Joshua Y. Sophie. :)

We cannot all do great things, but we can do small things with great love. [Mother Teresa] Sophie. Esther. :)

I know of only one duty, and that is to love. [George Bernard Shaw] Sophie. Abel :)

God, I don't have great faith, but I can be faithful. My belief in you may be seasonal, but my faithfulness will not. I will follow in the way of Christ. I will act as though my life and the lives of others matter. I will love. I have no greater gift to offer than my life. Take it. [Real Live Preacher] All us of who are desperate for a cause bigger than ourselves."


This is what i got today....what tomorrow brings thats another story..love you lord. :)
 

Imbloggingagain

If my life runs on the blogs time line..
then i am truly apart of a tragic tale..
for although i mapped out and got so excited for the coming year
it seems as though i never got to it.

not much time to blog anyway. will continue when i have my two cents to say

but for now i just wanna declare that

I REALLY THANK GOD FOR EVERY  PERSON HE PUTS IN MY LIFE especially the ones i can confide in for they have truly been a blessing and a signboard to point me back to god everytime.